Lately I have been having a recurring dream.  Actually, it’s not the same dream, but it’s dream after dream after dream all featuring the same sort of event.  In these dreams, I’m driving my car and I run a red light.  Each time I do this, an accident occurs.  Sometimes the accident involves my car and another, sometimes only my car is involved (hitting a pole or running off the road), and sometimes only another car is involved.

I have no idea what this means and why I’m having this sort of dreams.  I am a careful driver and I do not run red lights. 

That’s not true:  I DO have an idea of why I might be having these dreams.  In March my car was hit by someone who ran a red light.  The damage was merely cosmetic and no one was hurt, so I didn’t think much about it.  I am wondering now if perhaps this has something to do with the dreams.

Posted on August 4th 2008 by James

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Sometimes there are moments in life that just plain suck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Posted on August 1st 2008 by James

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Since getting some disturbing news from a friend, I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about the people in my life.  As I tend to have moments of deep introspection, this has been some intense thought. I’ve been looking at the people who are truly important to me and the places they hold in my life.

Karl – my oldest friend and the person with whom I am closer than anyone else. It’s odd that he and I would have ever become friends, because the setting in which we originally met was not conducive to our ever getting to truly know one another, and certainly not conducive to building a strong bond of friendship. Yet we did, and that friendship has been of the most important in my life.

Sam and Cyn – family. My friendship with this couple is comfortable and reliable. These people are family, be we genetically related or not.  I can’t imagine not having them in my life. I don’t get to see them as much as I would like, but I know they are always there for me.Â

Rick and Elizabeth – family of a different sort. One is the sibling you hated in childhood and love as adults. The other is the strange cousin you fight with when you’re together, apologize to immediately, and miss when you don’t see one another.

David and Chad – I started out as friends with David. We have almost everything in common; we even come from the same small town. He is one of the dearest people I know. His husband Chad became my friend just because he was with David. That didn’t last. Though we have little in common, we found that we really like one another. I know I can count on both of these friends no matter what.

Keith – I’ve only known Keith for less than two years, but in that time he has become one of the most important people to ever enter my life. Not only do I like him and enjoy spending time with him, but I have no doubts of my ability to count on him. This someone I know would never willingly or knowingly do anything against my best interests.

I sometimes can’t believe how amazingly fortunate I am to have these people in my life. Now….if only things can be worked out so that we don’t lose one of them.



Posted on April 5th 2008 by James

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I still exist

I really need to work on keeping this blog more current! I’m going to try. No promises other than that I’ll do what I can. (Not that many people read this thing, so most of this is directed toward myself.)

Lots has been happening lately, most of it insane. <g> My job continues to be far too much stress and responsibility for far too little money. My work on ADF’s Clergy Training Program is going much slower than I would like…but still faster than what other people are doing. I guess I continue to expect too much of myself.

In a couple of weeks I will be flying to California to visit my friend Karl. We haven’t seen one another in several years, although we talk three or four times a week. (Being on the same cellular network has its advantages!)

Okay…just got some bad news, not sure how to react to it. I’ll post more later.

Posted on April 4th 2008 by James

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I just spoke with my doctor.  It turns out that the tests I thought I was going to have to have — based on the results I got yesterday — do not need to be done.  The letter was merely badly phrased and he was recommending that I follow up with routine testing.  Nothing special is needed.

The ambiguity on the results was — as my doctor put it — due to the fact that I am a “walking violation of the laws of probabilty.”

Posted on September 19th 2007 by James

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Today’s test

Well, today I had my prostate biopsy.  It was one of the worst experiences I have ever had.  The aftermath is even worse, as it has continued to become more and more painful as the day has worn on.

Also, I got the results of last week’s colonoscopy and they were ambiguous enough to warrant another series of tests.  I am not happy about this. 

Posted on September 18th 2007 by James

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One more down

Well, I had the surgical colonoscopy today.  I barely remember any of the procedure.  The drugs I was given were to put me into a twilight sleep, and they apparently worked rather well.  I remember being wheeled into the operating room and given the drugs.  I remember a few isolated flashes of the procedure but nothing more.

I was fortunate to have a very good friend who drove me to and from and took care of me while I was too woozy from the drugs to function properly. 

Posted on September 11th 2007 by James

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Test tomorrow

Tomorrow I have a surgical colonoscopy.  This should be the next to last test I have to have for all this mess.  Next week I have a biopsy.

I am not doing terribly well facing this event tomorrow.  But I’ll get through it.  It’s not as if I have a choice in that.

Posted on September 10th 2007 by James

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No good news goes undestroyed

I had started feeling good about the medical situation.  My mistake.

A follow-up visit yesterday ended with my being scheduled for a prostate biopsy. 

Back to “terrified-mode”. 

Posted on August 24th 2007 by James

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Some test results

My doctor called me late yesterday.  The results of the bone scan and MRI are in.

Nothing negative was found.  They found something “odd” on the bone scan but nothing that could possibly have any dangerous properties.  And a blood vessel lesion was found on my liver.  This is apparently something rather common, and is nothing to worry about.

The next major set of tests is in a couple of weeks.  That one is surgical in nature and should be the final determinant in this whole thing.

Posted on August 21st 2007 by James

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